It has been a week since my father in law has passed. It was strange, being in the same room as a dead body. I expected to see his chest rise. I guess, in some ways, I can hardly believe still that he has passed. I have never been around death before. I can say that I had the feeling that there, before me and my wife, was just a body that was no longer functioning. I felt as though it just ceased to work. The man I knew as Larry was no longer with us, but that was all. I feel better talking about this now. I tried before to post but my account would not work. Maybe it was for the best. It feels more real to me now.

I had a few feeling that I still really can’t work out. In the middle of it all, I just wanted to sit at his side with my wife, and think through things. I didn’t get the chance to. A few days after I still had the feeling of wanting to be around him, just one last time. I have not been morbid in any of this. I just wanted to say goodbye.